last night i wrote Ian an email asking him for answers to why he left me while i was pregnant and how he could leave me to go through a miscarriage all on my own when he saw how scared i was of losing the baby. i explained to him how hard it was for me to cope after losing the baby on my own and i told him how much it had hurt me. i know he will never reply to the email but i just wanted him to know exactly what i was going through while he was swanning around enjoying his life.
i felt like when we split up it was unfinished and maybe thats why i was finding it so hard to move on. every time i have broken up with someone i was always given all the awnsers that i could close the door on that relationship. but with Ian he just cut me off.
now i have wrote that email i feel like i have said my peace and i can finally start moving on. i feel like things will start going right for me.
this morning when i woke up my mum rang me and told me her boss was looking for someone to come and do some admin work for six weeks and he was offering me the job. which is brilliant news.
lets hope that things just keep getting better…