On the 18th argust at two in the morning i started to bleed and i got really worried so i text Ian and tried to ring him but he didnt awnser because he was probably asleep. So in the morning i told my mum about it and she rang the out of hours doctor and they said they thought i was misscarring and so i went up to the hospital and i tried ringing Ian to let him know and text him but he was ignoring my calls and texts. I asked one of my friends who i met who is going out with Ians best friend and asked if they could text him to see if he was ignoring me.
Later on that day after being at the hospital for five hours the doctors said there was nothing they could do to confirm what was happening with the baby.
When i got home i got a text from Ian having ago at me for getting people involved and making them feel uncomftable, he also said that why would i contact him as its not like he could do anything.
I knew he couldnt do anything to stop it but i wanted and needed him there as i was having to go through it all on my own.
I then text my friend and said that i wad really sorry if i had made her feel uncomftable and she said that she didnt feel that way and that she was more than happy to help as that is what friends are for.
The next day i was in alot of pain and was bleeding very heavily and i lost the baby on the 19th of argust around four oclock. I wasnt going to tell Ian as he made it perfectly clear that he didnt care and he never did. But it was also his baby and i didnt want anybody eles to be the messenger as thats not fair on them.
I had deleted his number as i had decided even tho i love him very much know that i didnt have the baby i could move on with my life.
So when i went to tell him i have to email him, my email told me when he has recieved it and also read it but i never got a reply from him.
I guess thats what hurts more that i had just lost are baby and he didnt seem to care. He could even reply thank you for letting me know or anything.