So much has happened since I last blogged so this is gonna be a catch up and then I will start blogging every one ti two days again.
Ok so I went on a night out with a friend and we did get rather drunk and I gave a guy my number but only for a joke but the next day I got a text from him asking if we could meet up, so I just explained that I was very drunk the night before and only gave it to him as a joke.
I then deleted the text because I never have messages saved on my phone if the number isn’t saved, anyways I went and stayed at Ian’s that night and while I was asleep the guy text me back again saying it was OK and said to come and meet him but Ian saw the text before I did and woke me up and asked me about the text and I had only just woke up and didn’t recognise the number so I said I don’t know and then I text back asking who it was and then he said his name and said remember you text me earlier.
So Ian took my phone and started having ago at me accusing me of cheating on him but I hadn’t so I kept saying I hadn’t and he wouldn’t believe me and then he went to go through my texts with my friend who I had been confiding in about cheating on him with Toni in the past, so I jumped out of bed and kept keeping my phone out reach so I couldn’t stop him so I grabbed my things and ran out the house because I knew that as soon as he saw the texts to my friend and found out I had cheated things would get ugly.
A couple of minutes later I realised that because he had my phone I had no way of getting home and that I would have to go back to get my phone and ring my dad.
I knocked on the door and his step dad answered and let me back in and said ian had gone looking for me, so I waited in his room and when he got back he was having ago at me and was saying that he knew what I had done and wanted me to say it but I couldn’t bring my self to, so I just said you know what IV done don’t make me say it.
But it turns out the messages were a couple of pages up and he hadn’t looked that far and didn’t know what I had done but he said that because I had given my number out that he was dumping me and didn’t want anymore to do with me.
So he gave my phone back so I rang my dad and was in bit the whole night because I really did love him.
And then I stared a new job on the Monday and u really enjoyed it and then I got asked out on a date by a friend I had stared talking to that weekend but I was still missing Ian so I text him telling him it wasn’t me who gave the number out and that it was my friend.
We started talking again just about everything but my family all said he was a dick and wanted me to have nothing more to do with him but I was determined to get him back. But when we got back together he said that if we did I would have to stop talking to my friends and delete my Facebook and twitter and get rid of my phone and I wouldn’t be allowed to go on nights out not even for my 18th birthday. I agreed because I knew it was my own fault but in the end he let me keep, y phone but I had to change my number and delete my Facebook and twitter but I also kept in touch with my friend because hadn’t actually done anything wrong but he doesn’t know and she understands that he doesn’t know.
And then one night I stayed round and found a load of texts from a girl called Kelly who he was apparently really good friends with but they were flirting and he was telling her how pretty he was and kept calling her gorgeous and then they were talking about him masturbating and one night he said he couldn’t sleep and she replied with stop thinking about me then and then she put oops I mean louse with a winkey face and he was going along with it, also they were texting constantly and he hardly ever texts me even once.
I woke him up and asked him about it but he didn’t really understand why I was annoyed as seen as I was the one who was in the wrong, but he did agree that he would call her gorgeous and say things like that any more but if he does he probably just deletes it.
But now every time she is mentioned I just want to tell him to shut the fuck up and never mention he again.
I asked him if he liked her that way and he assured me nothing was going on but I can’t help but wonder sometimes. I know I should trust him because if there’s no trust then whats the point of being with him bt he does make me very happy a lot of the time.
Also because I got back it Ian me and my family all fell out and I’m now living with Ian because when my family found out they text him abuse and then said they would do what ever they have to do to stop me being with him, so we are jot talking at all which is a shame because it was my 18th birthday on the Monday just gone and I didn’t even get a text from my mum which really hurt (there was no cards or pressents of them either).
Ian’s mum and step dad brought me an Android Tablet tho and Ian spoilt me with flowers and Jewellery and chocolates bless him and then he got me a phone charger as well because I haven’t had one in the last seven months and have been using iPod docks to charge it.