I was talking to Ian earlier and I mentioned that he keeps joking about threesomes and I asked him if it was his way of hinting and he said he would like to have one if he wasn’t in a relationship and he has only been thinking about it the last nine months and I said I wouldn’t do it if it was with someone I was in a relationship with as it can cause jealousy.
But the thing I didn’t tell him was that a few years ago when I was younger I had a threesome with Kyle and his ex girlfriend and I was very drunk and didn’t enjoy it. I wanted to tell him but really didn’t want him to get the wrong idea about me. Also I didn’t know how he would react to it as I haven’t mentioned it before and that’s kids something I should have told him before.
I really did want to tell him I just couldn’t find the words and didn’t know how to start that conversation off, it’s a tricky one because iv not ever told anybody before. It did get out an my boyfriend at the time found out and I just told everyone it was rumours and wasn’t true in anyway.
I don’t know if I could trust him knowing that about me. but I don’t want to leave it too long and then I realise I do want to tell him and then he would never forgive me for keeping it from him, as he is very big on honesty.
I really don’t know what to do I’m completely stuck and really don’t have anybody to chat to because I need told anybody- I love all my family and friends but could never trust them with this kind of information.